Tootsie made him She in the virtual space of WWW
Scene 5 –
His breathing had become erratic and heavy, His whole body was shaking, His eyes were oozing out the excitement, frustration, anger and violence with which he was suffering for many days. Though his eyes were fixed on TV, playing an adult film, but in reality they were not exactly looking at what was running on the TV screen, he was able to imagine several other things.
Dhuck Dhuck ….. sound was there
His mind was making sound inside in rhythm, …k, …k
His mind was thinking fast and was able to see many images and many thoughts. He had become a vast body and images and thoughts of all the women he had seen or had heard or read about were passing through his mind. Miss worlds, Miss Universes, national and international models, actresses from across the globe, even few woman politicians and all the girls and women he had been liking since he had got sense in childhood were approaching and passing through his mind. They were passing and yet occupying the body of one single woman a giant woman. He had also become a giant man.
His mind was thinking on fast track and he was able to listen, those words passing through his mind as subtitles go below the passing scenes on the screen.
I am powerful. I am a horse……, I can . … like a …. … I will ….. her, ……. Bastard…..
ohh ….. come …..
Huff Huff
Dhuck Dhuck …k .…k
He was thinking and his mind was repeating,
I am the power,…….. I am the energy……
His eyes were fixed somewhere in the vacuum and
mass transferred ……. and his wild energies fell in to peace
Slowly his eyes became closed. He was taking deep breaths and was murmuring slowly…..
I am getting peace……….. . I am at peace.
Slowly he was surrendering in to the sleep. TV was on, light was on, but he was cut off from the rest of the world and had been lost in to the deep slumber.
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Scene 1 -
He felt to call someone, anyone but did not call. He found his mood utterly depressive. He was unable to think, what should he do?
He filled with rage when he recalled that evening when they all were watching Haasil and after watching Ashutosh Rana, saying to his screen younger brother, tum mujhe election jeetne ke prati serious nahin lagte, tumhae bas is ek ladki ka vote mil jaye yahee bahut hai tumahre liye (You don’t seem to me serious about winning the election. You care for vote of this girl only).
Sukant did not lose the chance and he had attacked him by saying that this dialogue is so fitting on Babu . He had said Babu tum mujhe kahani likhne, script likhne ya film banane mein interested nahin lagte, tumhe bas kisi mashhoor lekhak ya actor ya director ka saath mil jaye yahee bahut hai (you dont seem to be serious about story writing, script writing or film making. If you get company of some famous writer, actor or director then that is sufficient for you). All the people present there laughed on him and he felt very insulted. Then they all started ridiculing him on various occasions and he felt revengeful.
He left the sofa where he was lying and switched off the TV. He went to bathroom and took a long shower, he felt little better. He came back in to the room. Room was in a complete mess. Empty Beer bottles were lying on the floor. Table had a half filled bottle of rum and a glass where some rum was still left. Ashtray was completely filled up with the butts of cigarettes. He did not feel any energy to clean the room.
His mobile rang but he was unable to locate it. He heard his favourite ring tone but found it irritating this time. By the time he located his mobile, ring was stopped. He saw miss calls- 5 miss calls from different people. He did not feel to call back anyone.
He went to his computer table and switched on the computer. I should have lemon tea, he thought, It will help me to feeling better. He prepared lemon tea for him and came back to his computer table with a cup of lemon tea in his hand. His computer was on. He clicked on internet explorer.
He visited his favourite site of these days. He found no new post there. Seems people have gone busy in their real life.
Am I the only free man? Only my life sucks?
He checked once again his mistakes and went in to the mixed feelings of depression and anger. Why he did that mistake? How he could do it?
As they say swimmers are also drowned. He was angry with the fact that he repeated his mistake.
Now everybody will be knowing my secrets. After all, people are really smart here.
I am software engineer. Huh, my foot.
What this moderator is doing. Silly man. He abused him.
Everybody is biased towards me.
and that preacher! Rascal was telling me, This forum is like a temple where we all put our energies to make it an energetic place so that others can get benefits. Stupid man. he thinks he can say me long discourses and I will buy his theories. F… you, I give damn to your theories.
He checked his mobile again. He had sent several SMSs to his mentor. He thought,” I treated him as genius and when I am down he cant find time to meet me. I treated him so well, supported him when whole media was busy in giving a shit about him. I was the person who gave him moral support and when I need him he is not responding me”.
Idiot. World is cruel. Nobody helps anybody here.
He became depressed, frustrated and angry. He thought to do online chat with someone. This is the only way to get his mood corrected. Let me do some sexy chat, he thought. He logged on a chat site but his chatting experience was able to see that there was no female present in the chat rooms. Still he sent message to one person owning female ID. He got message from other side,” Who are you?”
He was filled with rage with this line and he shot back, Teri Ma ka khasam, (Husband of your mother) and logged out of the chat box. He surfed some more sites but no where he got solace.
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Scene 2-
Babu had come back from Bombay to Kota and he had not told any of his friend at Bombay, where he was going. He got a DVD of Tootsie from his brother in law who had just come back from USA. Babu was passing through the phase where he was angry with everybody in his circle. He was disillusioned from the web forum and people present there but somewhere he was missing the forum also as this was his pet site to write and to interact with others. He watched Tootsie and he liked it so much that he watched it again and then again and in a night he watched it 5 times and in the morning Mohini had taken birth.
He opened a new account on the web forum with a new name Mohini and started writing.
Interestingly he was very careful while writing in his new incarnation of Mohini and he tried his best that he used different kind of language and presented Mohini as a happy and cheerful female writer interested in poetry and short stories who likes to watch films also.
While he used to get fight with everyone, Mohini was found as easy going person. Babu was split in to two people. He paid great attention in maintaining two profiles. While in Bombay he always used his own profile as Babu and as he was visiting Kota almost twice in a month, so he always used Mohini’s profile from Kota only.
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Scene 3-
But as they say, even cleverest person does mistakes and once he did this mistake. He was visiting Kota and he was again passing through bad phase and he was angry with everybody.
He was very angry with writer Prabhakar also, rather he was angry with every body whoever was bit famous.
He visited the site of his forum and found an interesting debate was going on and Prabhakar was also participating there.
He was charged to settle scores with Prabhakar and many others present at the forum and in this exciting moments he forgot his care and he started commenting there with a new name “Terminator”.
He attacked Prabhakar there and when moderator was involved in the debate and had cautioned him to not to misuse freedom of expression then he had started attacking moderator also and soon everything was bad in taste. He was filled with poisonous anger and he wanted to destroy everything.
He was stopped to make further comments and after some time he realised that he has done a big mistake and now moderator would get to know that Terminator and Mohini were same person.
He knew that with death of Terminator, Mohini was also died. He had a relief that perhaps they would never get to know that Babu and Mohini were also same person.
* * * *
Scene 4-
One week passed and he came back to Bombay. He was thinking why he became so destructive? Why he cant face criticism by others? Why he is so negative in thinking?
He was knowing that somehow Babu is still safe because others don’t know the facts that he was Mohini and Terminator in disguise but what about his own consciousness?
He struggled to forget whatever he had done but was unable to do so. He found his friends normal with him. Even Prabhakar called him and told him how he was stuck in his engagement and gave him good news that one of his book has been picked up by a producer and soon producer w’dl declare to make a film on his book.
He was relieved that life was normal but somehow he was disturbed and was unable to forget his own doings. He was restless. Still violence was inside him. He felt that he had done crime against Tootsie. Tootsie had taken birth to do something good and what I did ?
* * * *
Background :
A forum on internet where all kind of creative people were gathered to discuss and to exhibit their creative works, painting, writing, sculpting, welding etc. Even ad filmmakers, film makers, and business gurus were part of the forum. Babu had joined this forum some 18 months ago. Babu had liked motto of the forum – Creation should make world a better place to live.
Babu – a resident of Kota, education – Bachelor of Computer Science and technology.
Babu always had a desire to be a writer and film maker and that desire got much needed fuel when he got his first job in Bombay. 1 year passed but he had not got a single chance to see even shooting of any film. He could met only a comedian cum character actor, who used to do small forgettable roles, at Juhu Beach.
Babu wrote stories and tried to meet directors and producers but who cared for a 25-26 years old dreamy young man? He could not get a chance to go beyond the reception of offices of film makers and directors. Sent his scripts by post, through emails also but got no response. He got fear after reading at website of one famous film maker that “before sending your script, make sure its registered with writer’s association and we hold no responsibility if your unregistered script is copied by someone”. He was getting disillusioned and then he came across this web forum where so many people like him were gathered. Now it was cinema and literature all the time. Day in day out he was filled with the thoughts of cinema and writing in cinema only. As luck was favouring him, through the forum he got a chance to meet “Prabhakar” a 40 year old writer and theatre director. Prabhakar was also very interested in films also and was waiting for his two books to be adapted in to the films. They went along very well. Babu’s evenings were filled with plays, films, discussion about literature over drinks, smoking etc. He was very happy as his knowledge was enhancing. Slowly more youngsters like him joined the group and soon a local chapter was established in the Bombay. But that brought a little insecurity in him also. Now Prabhakar was not with him only and secretly Babu hated openness of Prabhakar. Time came when Prabhakar became busy in meetings with different producers and in his theatre works.
Babu’s articles were getting good response on their web forum and this was a satisfaction for him. But sometimes he was unable to take pressures of the real life. His job conditions were not favourable for him. He was sitting before his computer all the time, connected with his web forum. He had started detesting his technical work but he needed the job to survive in the city.
His impulsive nature often brought him tensions as he easily got entangled with many other fellows present on the web forum or even in his social circle also.
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D. Santosh
Onir
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Ramu Ramanathan
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Pankaj Advani
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RK Sir,
I am a dumb person Sir.A Jim Carrey from Dumb and Dumber meets The Welfare Office clerck in Kurosawa’s Ikiru, that’s what describes me 10 on 10. So, could you please tell me what exactly you were trying to write? Was that a screenplay opposing all the teachings and writings of Lew Hunter? An existential dementia borne out of Sartre’s ‘nausea’? A soul-searching pamphlet
?The forum of PFC specifies that If you could please enlighten me a little that what merits did your above mentioned article reflect to be published and to fulfill the objective goal of this forum, I would venture to write about my life long problem related to Karan Johar’s movies which manifests after each of his new release as chronic constipation.
Please help me.
regards,
Cubicle Bound Misfit.
@ Rk ,Your strating of your story is matching to one scene character ‘harsha’ of Suredra verma “Mujhe chandf chahiye” and it was novel that gave me inspiration to read lots of hindi sahiyta.
RK // fabulous! this is what real writers do – seek inspiration from the true life events – and you did it in the most awesome manner. most abstract and at times metaphysical.
CBM // lol! the story is about this nietzsche forest where the pandora’s bush bloomed
just kidding. i believe it’s based on a true incident and reckon the write up would have been impactful if RK had chosen different names (in other words if he had not been so abstract!).
wb: Sachi ye kahani hai sun lo (Story is true, listen it)[Cant recall this song belong to which film). Its true story to any extent but its more true to the characters. We all are in a loop where we own costumes of Babu, Sukant, Prabhakar, Moderator and preacher as per our ease and hence we are the cause of the events happen around us.
Active members, Babu, Sukant and Prabhakar, can make world bit beautiful by their controlled doings but they prefer to live in a sleeping order and hence create problems around them and where others are also entrapped. With bit awareness they can help others living in a peaceful manner but they dont know the word introspection or if they know they dont believe in this word.
Their frustrations are the biggest in the world, their depressions are the deepest in the world, in short they feel everything bad is happening to them only and they over react to their own problems and thus become easily destructive because they dont believe in others and they have no space for others.
Thanks! you read between the lines.:)
Shatrughan:-
I have heard name of the novel you have quoted but never got a chance to read it. Perhaps it had got some award (Jnananpeeth?) when I had heard abt this book. Its story of some woman wanting to become actress- Am I right?
Author has started such scene with a female character? Normally hindi authors dont usher female that too their lead characters in to Freudian areas.
RK:sachchi yeh kahani hai sun lo mer jaan ..the song was from “kabhi haan kabhi naa”
Cubilcle Bound Misfit:
IF you are not ALREADY a part of PFC, then surely you can try to come up with your constipation, Diahorrea and vomiting or loose motion kinda problems, which you get after watching films of certain filmmakers, through Iview.
I assure you and even agree with you that above mentioned article (as you say it) does not reflect any merit to be published here on a film related site.
Sorry to accelerate feelings of disagreement in you.
But it works other way round.
If you have been part of PFC or have been a regular reader for several months then you have to see if you have objected in past also on such posts which have nothing to do with cinema as such and especially made by any celebrity author?
Psychologically, this will help you a lot in your life.
Why do you think that if I have taken more than 45 minutes in writing this piece then you can understand it completely in 10 minutes of vague reading? Even electricity bill demands a patient reading.
Its very good to quote big names but something of our own life should also reflect in our writing.
Its a trap and you can fall in category of Mohini or Terminator easily. You can come up with counter arguments with more force in your statements but major thing is your own life and space you give to others.
To make your life easy-
There is a trend where most favourably 3-6 people who have shown interest or have taken vows to follow monkhood (they may remain in family- it does not matter they are married and have children as they dont have to go in forest) i.e. they are progressing on the path of nonviolence, truth and self search, they come forward and they all have to create, on the spot, stories which have been taken from real life, not necessarily from their own life and they may pick up stories they have observed in their vicinity, and they have to say their stories in extempore manner and in such a manner that audience may feel that these stories are superimposed on their own lives.
and its necessary that first part of story is essentially related to sex energy, because that produces a test for audience. And stories are not told in a very coherent ways so that audience start enjoying the story telling.
This is called double way catharsis. Both orator and listener are part of this catahrsis process and hence both can be benefitted in this cleansing process. In other trend “sex start” is replaced by deeply emotional story where tears cleanse the soul.
Depending on their receptivity and acceptance towards surroundings, audience get the benefit.
This is sure that acceptance motivates to see positive in something and refusal pushes to see only negativity.
@Rk, Surendra Verma “mujhe chand chaiye” was based on NSD and Bollywood. EK chote city ( sarjahapur ) ki larki jo ghar waalo se vidroh karke NSD join karti hai aur uske baad bollywood ki one of the best actress ban jaati hai.Ye novel me mainly NSD,uska Course structure,Plays etc. ke baare me kafi deeply explain kiya hai.Surendra verma ki plays and movies ke baare me Gajab ki knowledge hai jo is novel me throughout reflect hoti hai.
Nahi isko Sahitya Academy Awards nahi mila tha,us samay {2000) ye award Vinod Kumar Shukla book “Deewar Main Ek Khirkee Rahathi Thi” ko mila tha jispe kafi controvery hui thi.
Main jis scene ki baat kar raha tha usme main ek character harsha ki baat kar raha tha.He was very very talented actor but his life ending was quite depressing thanks to soul less,Masala bollywood.
In fact this book gave me inspiration to know about movies,plays and off course hindi sahitya.
Rk its highly recommended book,whenever you will get time then plz read it.
Shailesh: Ohh ya Thanks,
SRK, Ashutosh Gowarikar, Suchitra Krishnamurty and gang perform in hotel of Tiku Taslania before Don, Goga Kapur and his chamcha in chief Veerendra Saxena.:)
Shatrughan: sorry this english makes Harsh as Harsha, If it was Versha I could have known its female. My bad guess.
Ya I will surely read the book. You have generated so much curiosity abt the book. Thanks for this insight in to the book. But if you recall this book had got some major award.
Sorry for wrong fact mujhe chnad chaiye to 1996 me Sahitya Akademi Award diya gaya tha.(abhi google ne mujhe ye information diya hai
but jo baatie maine apne last post me likha tha woh maine rajendra yadav ke ek essay se liya tha )
yes main character name was Versa vasisthat and harsh was boyfriend and her colleges in NSD.
Shatrughan : Rajendra ji has a liking for films related things so no doubt he shd like the book mujhe chand chahihiye.
Basu Chaterjee had adapted his book “Sara Akash” in 1970. Since then he is half filmi and above this his close friends late Rakesh Mohan and Kamleshwar’s works were either adapted in films or they wrote for films.:)
MCC- is it based on life of Meeta Vasistha, the actress, I think she is NSD graduate?
Yes meeta is NSD graduate. Maine bhi jab novel ko padh raha tha to yahi feel liya tha aur versha ka descrption bhi meeta se match karta hai but ye baat to Surendra ji hi bata sakte hai unhone kis real life character se “Inspiration” liya tha.
Shatrughan: its true, author may tell and in reality he cant even tell. In hindi its difficult to accept on whose character someone’s book is based. In English also scene is not better in india. Khuswant Singh has been in trouble with Maneka Gandhi. Balwant Gargi was in troubles with Rajendra Singh Bedi and Rama Vij.
Samresh Basu had become victim of anger of so many bengali elite class powerful people.
peeli chatri waali ladki..ke baare me kya khyaal hai bhaiyon…
Dipankar: Even Rajendra Yadav kind of senior authors cant dare to criticise author’s writing.:)
Its a sensitive area. be careful.
Has he not got some AWARD in USA last year on this book?
He is Sudhir Mishra’s favourite contemporary author.
chodoonga main na us but-e-kaafir ka poojna
chode na Khalq go mujhe kaafir kahe baGHair
Sir jhuakoge to pathar devata ban jayega
itna mat chaho use wo bewafa ho jayega
[If you bow down before a stone it will become God
dont love to this extent he will sway away]
huaa hai shaah ka musaahib, fire hai itaraata
wagarna shehar meiN ‘Ghalib’ kee aabroo kya hai
RK…now its ur turn…:)
erm, how do i say this, um, agar app mistakes, slip of tongue, or whatever do not read/pronounce “chodoonga” properly, then woh do line ka matlab aur kuch hi….
:d
Dipankar Ghalib himself has given antidote to that one.
(1) Wo puchte hain Ghalib kaaun hai
Koi bataye ya Hum (they ask who is Ghalib, someone will tell or I will have to say)
and someonelese also has written
(2) Mana kisi kabil nahin hain hum
jakar unse poocha jinhe hasil nahin hain hum ( Its acceptable that I am not able for anything
But did you ask those to whom I am not available)
Hey Phoenixnu and Dipankar, you guys are making it like that competitive song of Ankhyon ke jharokhe se where Sachin and Ranjita are engaged in singing dohas of Kabir and Raheem.
We also need Ravindra Jain here:)
:d:d:d:d:d
I think MCC is based on the experience of Neena Gupta, not Meeta Vashisht….
aditi: Om Puri, Vivian Richards are also part of the book, I mean characters based on them?:-?
@aditi, i was only talking about similarity of name and description between meeta and Versha vasistha.
Can you tell me Neeta gupta is NSD graduate????
Yes Shatrughan — Neena Gupta is a NSD grad. She’s from Old Delhi — Sitaram Bazaar..
@HG….ye pfc hai bhojpuri cinema nahi…arth ka anarth mat karo…:)
@ RK..as u wish..
chalti chakki dekhkar diya kabeera roye
do paatan ke beech me sabut bachaa na koye..
yesterday’s film “change of address” is a nice idea to adapt..like “dinner at eight”…turned into “bheja fry”..
@pheonixnu…somen wer r u man..vasan told me that u r coming to fun..
@aditi ,MCC character Versha Vasistha was from a small town of U.P ( sarjahapur ) and she was belonging to a poor teacher family. I think this description is not matching with Neena gupta.
@DGiri…are yaar office me phans gaya tha. aaj try karta hoon. BTW,i was defending u last nite…of til today morning. raat se subah ke 6 baje gaye. slept by 6:30. Ur freind vasanbala was abusing u.kick his ass!!
This post so much reminds of Dada Kondke
love-day(pronounced with missing hyphen)
chaar chatten chaar chootten(literal translation—–all 4 roofs leak—–
:d:d:d
Dipankar: you right nobody is saved when crushed between two revolving solid sides.
Shatrughan , Aditi: RGV’s mein madhuri dixit banna chahti hun, is not something similar. Have not seen the film, but Antara Mali comes from Gajraula a small place if not shanjahanpur and wish to become actress.
@ phenoex..thanx yaar…vasan has a problem..he never gets me….if i tell him that i m going right..he has a problem..if i go straight then he also has a problem…there is a connection betwn Bigb’s donation and a poor man…he doesn’t understand dis..since he never been to those places…he never been to kalahandi (orrissa)..Jharkhand..Chattisgarh…I have seeen them..n it’s under world’s largest democracy..it’s the tale of a country where no. of karodpati has crossed the figure of 1 lakh…incidentally..BigB has hosted such a game also….
The conflict of “Mujhe Chand Chahiye” is arises from this heap…varsha vashishth is a poor girlwho just dreamt..
GWL: whats Dada Kondke like here?
BTW, Did he make any such film with title you are quoting or you are just believing rumours?
Man Mohan Desai treated him as his guru as he resepcted the factor that Dada Kondke had given 9 successive golden jubilie films.
I have not seen any of his film though.
bihbhuti narayan rai’s “Kissa Loktantra” is a tale of an yng guy who want to become a politician…it’s a very real story…
Phoenixnu – sale donno Jharkhandi milke ek bechare Madrasi ki kyon maar rahe ho…donno Dhanbadi who speak in Bengali…ruk ruk Phoenix
Dipu sale to Psudeo Communist hai…teri baatein main kabhi nahi manunga…tu akhir Mumbai hi aaya na….wahin kyon nahi bas gaya….itna hi desh ke bare mein chinta hai to….
tu baat karta hai abhyan ki
….kranti ki…
aur mumbai pahunchte hi chala gaya Bajali….
vasan tere kaaran main film nahi dekh paaya…main mumbai tere jaiso ko thik karne aayaa hoon
DGiri…is zimbly zouth ki ek din milkar bajate hain. lets catch up.
RK
I read about these two titles a decade back in a Filmfare issue. Maybe some Marathi guy can shed some light on this.
what films did Dada kondke make with double meaning titles?
GWL… all films of Dada Kondke had “double meaning” and I’ve watched each of them…
GWL: I have heard only one film
“Andheri raat mein diya tere haath mein” where perhaps Amzad Khan also acted along with Haryanvi actress Usha Chahvhan.
But I am almost sure he never made a film with that title. though there were rumours with this title and another with “Boss D K”.
Thats why wrote that people used to create rumours aout his titles. like Ajit jokes or say there were always rumours that Dev Anand was making a film where he would play younger brother of Amitabh Bachchan. so these kind of juicy gossips:)
Dipankar, Shatrughan: Hey guys, (or anyone lover of Hindi literature), can you have access to a book “Shah Aur Maat” (Rajendra Yadav), if you have not read it please read ASAP and tell if a recently released film has lifted material from the book. atleast early 1 hour of the film.
With the book you will automatically understand which film is this?
Help is appreciated.:)
@RK,its very tough to get hindi saahitya books in Bangalore.whenever i will go to my hometown(Banaras),i will buy this book.
By the way can you tell me name of that movie???:)